I've been thinking tonight about trials. Many of you have experienced some extremely hard times lately, and I just don't understand why. I guess it's a good thing that we don't know what's going to happen to us in the future, because I'm not sure I could get out of bed in the morning. It really worries me that I don't feel that I've experienced any major trials in my life. I know the person that I want to become, and I know that I am not that person yet. In order to become that person I need to allow Heavenly Father to "mold" me through experiences. But I don't want to experience them. And it hurts me to see my friends and loved ones suffer through trials. I guess I'll just choose to focus on the wonderful gift of the gospel. The gospel is not insurance against heartache, but a resource to turn to when we experience heartache.
Anyway, it's been a pretty crazy day. It started off with me visit teaching a sweet girl that lives in Kansas City. After leaving her house, I got a flat tire on a very busy road. So I called Ryan and he had to leave work and come rescue us. We had to change the flat in 90 degree heat while the 4 kids sat in the hot car. Ryan has been telling me all week long that I need to put air in the back tire of the van, but life got in the way and I never made it to the air pump. Then I had to drag my kids all over town to buy stuff for an upcoming ward activity that I'm in charge of planning. After returning home, my friend dropped off her 3 youngest children to play and spend the night. They've had a great time with my kids, but I'm worn out. I've dealt with various spills, a child pooping all over my floor, a child peeing their pants, numerous arguements and nobody wanting the food I gave them. We also found out tonight about some changes that will occur in our church positions.
But none of this compares to the actual trials I see my closest friends dealing with, and I'm thankful tonight for this busy day. I might even be able to laugh about the tire situation tomorrow . . .but not yet.
2 comments:
I'm glad that I'm not the only one worried about my "bubble" life and upcoming trials. I have actually thought about that a lot. Not that life can't be challenging sometimes if not a lot, but nothing compared to what it could be. It truly does make you grateful for all of our blessings and helps push us through those hard times. Wishing you some peace and calm ahead!
Trials and changes are never easy are they. You know what I have come to realize though? The blessings I see in my life when I work through that trial is amazing. It isn't there when I am in the midst and there are times when I have to get through it and look back to see how much I have been blessed for the experience. Ali you are an amazingly strong person. Stronger than I think you realize. And, you know what's funny? Sometimes we don't even realize the trial until we have made it through on the other side.
You have become a blessing in my life. I thoroughly enjoy your outlook and your ability to "put your shoulder to the wheel". I think you are right when you say that if we knew what our trials would be we wouldn't want to deal with them. I know that is how I feel. When we stick by what we know is right and true even when it is hard...that is when our tests become part of our strengths and when our Heavenly Father blesses us.
I haven't been liking my trials lately. I want different ones. I'm still trying to find that sign up sheet for the "lesser trials". haha.
Changes? There are changes? I always pick the WRONG time to go out of town! Darnit! =)
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